难过的心情

昨天早上接到妹妹的电话来电说，我们的好朋友-美仪去世了。一个22岁的开心果，因为心脏病而离开了我们。心里真的很难过，很伤心！为什么？一个很积极的努力活着得开心果，为什么上天要把她给带走？每年的新年，他都会往我家跑，跟我拜年。可是明年，就听不到他的笑声了。。。

台湾回来了。。。。

台湾之旅真的很好玩。。。吃吃喝喝，走走看看，买买东西。。。真的很开心。。。

原来休息真的是为了走更长的路。。。

加油！加油！！！

累！

我真地对这份工作觉得很累了！压力压到每天头痛。。。

又一年了。。。

时间过得真快。。。又一年了。。。我的生日又要到了。。。我又要老一岁了。。。

心里面有好多的梦想，想带着孩子去旅行，想换车，想每个月都有钱存。。。

全都都是想。。。想。。。。想。。。都无法实现。。。

真的觉得自己无能。。。为什么那么差劲？？？

别人总觉得我想女强人，可是我也会有软弱的一面。。。。

自从婚后，我的生日就被遗忘了。。。

今年，我一定要好好的过我的生日！！！！

加油！！

Stress!!!!

I really cant take it! I am stressed until i cant sleep well! I am sick of work! I am sick of facing you!

28.09.2011

今早六点起床，七点就出门。为什么呢？因为要送朋友去机场。。。

在路途中，我看见了我前夫的车。我想他也应该看到我和他！！！

其实被他看到，我并不害怕，反而是开心。。。。

因为我要让他看见现在幸福活着的我！！！！

生日之旅- 台湾

今天超开心，因为终于可以实现愿望了！！！一直以来都很想去台湾走走看看。以前就被前夫骗说会带我去，结果都无法实现。今年头，我告诉自己，今年的生日，我一定要去台湾旅行。我吃到这么大，都没出过国，除了新加坡。这趟旅行总共是6天，1/11/2011 到7/11/2011 （生日)才回。想到这次的生日能和同一天生日的他和我及朋友们一起过，真得很特别。好期待哦！！！

爱情

爱情本来就是一场闹剧。。。

当谢幕了，一切就回归正常。。。

那又何必太认真？？？

21.09.2011

今天的心情很糟糕！我竟然在一个我常去的妈妈网，看到我前夫出轨的贱女人！为什么？我已经慢慢的淡忘这件事了，干吗还出现？还看见他假惺惺的安慰人！原来他也离婚了！是为了我前夫吗？那我就不知道了！

16/09/2011 - 18/09/2011

这个假期过得还蛮开心的。带了孩子去师父那里拜拜，然后去海边走走。迎面而来的海风出得让我想再去度假。小瓜看见快艇和香蕉船，开心的不得了。还帮我拍照呢。。。。只是他害怕海浪会把我卷走，一直不让我靠近海边。哈哈！！！更好笑的是，他在车上睡觉，可能姿势不对吧！所以脚麻痹。他哭着跟我讲，：" 妈咪！！！我的脚断了！！！"吓死我！后来才知道他是脚麻痹。这小瓜真的是！！现在回想起来真得很好笑！！！哈哈！这次去玩花不多钱啦！可能是我省省用吧！吃喝都随便一点咯！希望下次能去海边野餐。。。。。。。

15.09.2011

Balik kampong...oh oh oh....balik kampong...今天放工后就回家乡了看孩子去了。。。虽然和家人闹到有点不愉快，可是孩子还是要看的。。。就想说先忍一忍，等有能力了，就可以不用靠他们了。。。看到宝贝女儿，可能就能把一切都暂时忘记吧！！！昨晚总共收了4大袋东西。一袋是宝贝的奶粉啊！吃的用的玩的！一袋是为他准备让他带去我家的水果。一袋是我的衣物。一袋是蛋糕，巧克力，果冻。。。每次他们来或者我回去都是得花一大笔钱。有苦自己吃。。。。。
好了！生活越苦，阿Q精神要越高！加油！！！

12.09.2011

祝大家中秋节快乐！！！今天的心情还是不好！从昨天开始，我不敢再花钱了，只是自己做了两个蛋糕，慢慢的吃咯！不要出门就不会花钱。我也打算这个月不再买东西了，包括家里的用品。等一切用完了，没有了再作打算。然后只吃快熟面，自己做的蛋糕，饼干就好了。为什么我需要过到酱？因为我要给我妈四百块的房租！！！！还好今天有个顾客送了我一盒月饼，至少能给我过节吃。

10.09.2011

今天的心情超烂！当下真得很想去跳楼！今晚打电话回家，我妈竟然跟我追讨房租。由于这个月他们下来蛮多天的，当然我的花费也不少，再加上车又坏，修了三百块。我已经告诉爸，我这个月不够钱花，给不到房租妈。我每个月要给四百块我妈当房租。可笑吧！孩子住妈妈的家还要给房租。我就告诉她，我这个月修车，给不到她。她就讲一大堆，把以前我结婚给我的红包都拿出来讲。我真得很怕他们帮我！她就一样一样的跟我算。我一个女人，赚不多，要供车，还卡债，养孩子。。。她还是看到钱就是孩子，没有钱就什么都不是！现在到底孩子重要，还是钱重要？你和你的宝贝儿子还不是一样！都是想逼死我！家人不是在你有难的时候会出来帮忙的吗？为什么我的所谓家人会这样对我的？为什么？？？ 是不是逼死了我，你们就开心呢? 我真的好累！为什么老公这样伤害我，连家人也这样对我呢？到底我做错了什么？？？错在我没有钱！！那我去死，那你们就以拿到保险金，将你们就有钱了咯！

09.09.2011

今天不是很想工作，因为星期五了，假日木了！只想快快回家，然后梳洗完毕，就出去逛街买东西。想买些菜回家煮，把自己变成宅女两天。呵呵。。。以前刚一个人出来工作，最喜欢就是出粮的那天，因为晚上我就会马上去吃日本餐，然后买多多的干粮食物吨在家。只要家里有吃的，我都不会出门， 要省钱嘛！现在的好久没有这样了。我像这样应该能存到钱吧。。。其实我很怀念那时的生活，没有负债，虽然薪水不多，可是日子过得很充实，很开心。。。反而现在，想要过得像以前酱都不能了。。。。可是我仍然相信，以后的日子会更好！！！朋友们，我们一起加油吧!!!!

08.09.2011

今天早上原本很开心，上班没迟到，一切都好像顺顺酱。哪里知道突然收到我吉隆坡的老板的电邮。他告诉我，他这个月就离职了。我知道了真的很难过，心情真的跌到谷底。他是我遇到最好的老板，很疼我，也教了我很多。不管我新山的老板给我怎样的问题，他都会一一帮我解决。我和他就好像好朋友那样。每次他下来新山，都是我接见他，安排住宿和吃喝玩乐。现在他突然讲要离开，真得很舍不得他。以后有人欺负我，就没有人能帮我，挺我了。。。

07.09.2011

今天有个阿姨送了我几句。她说如果我要幸福的第二春，就必须改名字，不然我还是会离婚收场。还有是我这一身中有很多的烂桃花，但是都是我吃亏比较多。还有是在我40岁后，我会要开刀。还讲我身边很多有钱朋友，是真的吗？做么我都没觉得呢？朋友们，你们都相信吗？

06.09.2011

昨天好倒霉哦！我的爱车竟然亮红灯水滚，还好我有发现车子有问题，不然后果真的不堪设想。昨晚原本是准时下班，以为可以早点回家煮饭吃，哪里知道八点才回到家，只好随便煮个汉堡吃咯！今天也被逼要拿半天假去修车，又要花个三百块来修车了。昨天才想说要省一点钱去玩，现在看来餐餐要吃家里，吃面包快熟面才行了。不能再乱买东西了。。。车啊车！你乖一点啦！我真的没有钱让你再看医生了。。。每个月花在你身上的钱比我养宝贝女儿还多嘞！

05.09.2011

昨天，去了新加坡走走逛逛，真得很开心哦！我还买了三只手表，一个包包（晚宴用的），还有一堆水果，巧克力。。。在那里的水果都好大粒，而且蛮便宜新鲜的。买了四粒大雪梨，才新币3.98， 五粒大苹果新币2.59， 三粒大橙新币1.89。雪梨和苹果是买来炖甜汤喝的。还有两片有酒味的巧克力新币10.90。以后有空去新加坡逛逛也不错。买到自己开心的，满意的，就好啦！很久没有买到酱开心了。昨晚回到家，就马上去炖甜汤了，待会回家就能喝到冰冰凉凉的甜汤了。也能拿来送礼。。。哈哈！拿给他家人喝。。。放工回家，炒个饭，吃个橙，喝甜汤，再吃个酒心巧克力。哇！几写意一下。。。这个月希望可以多省一点钱，因为我又计划出岛啦！
在我生日的那一天出岛浮浅咯！度假一下。。哈哈！！！原来我就是可以这么简单，那么容易快乐。。。。

02.09.2011

放长假回来了。。。今天差点起不来上班，因为长假的这几天我都睡到自然醒。无奈。。还是得 乖乖的爬起来上班。。。这几天的假期有开心，当然也有不开心的。。。但是人是要感到知足 。。好好坏坏还是得过，还是得接受。。。原本的计划是去海边和马六甲玩，可是结果事不如
人为，取消了。但是还好有到处去逛街买东西，吃东西。。。最不开心的事收到那个贱人的讯息 说要看孩子。我真的不明白为什么平时他不会讲要看孩子？偏偏每次假日一到才讲要看孩子？是 他自己要看的吗？我觉得不是咯!是因为假日，他会回去他老妈家，他妈会问。。。贱男人！！！ 你没有拿过钱养孩子，你凭什么看他？这两年的生活里，你有顾虑到我们的死活吗？你有想过， 有问过，我们这两年里是怎样过吗？你只知道自己开心，和外面的女人到处去吃喝玩乐！ 贱男
人！！我告诉你！你最好离我们远一点！离婚的时候，我情愿选择不拿你一毛钱，就是不愿让女 儿知道她有个酱贱的老爸。现在我更加不会拿你任何一毛钱！孩子，我自己会好好把她养大，请 你高抬贵手，不要来打扰我们的生活！你和你家人的死活，跟我们一点关系也没有。。。我们也 没有兴趣知道！！！你老妈要看孙子，你就和外头的女人生给她看吧！你没有养女儿，当你老妈 想要看她，我就必须给她看，哪有这么便宜啊?

26/08/2011

Yeah!!! My long holiday is coming and my lovely baby is on the way now. I have been waiting for this long holiday for long time. Finally it's come true. Yesterday i received a sample of handmade soap from a blogger here. Damn happy coz at last i found those soap really handmade and without chemical. I cut it into four pieces, one for my baby, one for my mum, one for my sis and one for myself. If all of us try and have good respond, i will order more from this blogger. Dont know why when i received something that netfriends sent to me, i will feel very warm and happy. Today when i come to work, i was thinking of my little baby. Last night, i called and talked to her, she told me she want to bring her school bag and put all the colour pencils, colouring books , handwriting book inside. Then she asked me, Mummy, can i bring along the new barbie doll which grandma bought? I want to show you ler...Can??? Very nice de wor...
Got 2 combs, got dresses to change..Can mah??? Wa ha ha...I said, sure can la...From a small baby until now 3 1/2 years old, she can speaks like an adult now. Maybe she knew what had happen in our family and she learn to be mature than others children. When she saw me very angry, she will asked me not to angry, persuade me to cool down. I am very lucky to have a baby like her. My lovely Ning Ning, mummy love you!

My first book keeping in life

Last night i read one of the book which i bought last week. The name is My First Book Keeping in Life. The writer teach woman on how to save money and control expenses. Thats really a good book! Started from this coming month, i will follow and learn. I will write down all the expenses and income, do a reconcilation. Let see where can i save more money, which part of expenses i should cut down. Now i will save RM 5 for one lunch or one dinner that i took without using my own money, i hope from there i could save some money every month. At the same time, when i have any cyiling, i will save up for my child. Then both of us got saving everty month. Sounds good, right? Haha.....Since i was alone with my child, i need to plan for our own life. I am thinking of doing part time, but what job can i looks for? Actually i would like to try online selling, but now i have no pc. If i need to do online selling, then i need to buy a new pc. Ai....Like chinese said,
got money everything can do.if no money,can do nothing! I think i need to pray hard hard, hope
this year still got bonus la... If not, CNY need to buy nes clothes, ang pao... This coming new year, i hope can visit somewhere with my child.

Books

Yesterday i have bought 4 books for my own. One is RM 18.00 less 10 % and another 3 books are RM 8/pc. ( Special offer). I have long time didnt buy any books coz i feel that its expensive and wasting. But now i have change my mind, I think we need to read more books and gain more
knowledge to upgrade ourselves. Even this 4 books cost me RM 40.20, but i think its worth. I can spend my free time and reading at home instead of hanging around in the shopping mall. The first good point is gain knowledge, another good point is to save money. My daughter will come to JB by next week, hence i need to save more money, coz when they come, i have to spend alot of money for eating, shopping...etc. I have long time didnt do anything for myself. Before i get married, whatever i did is for my family; After i get married, everything i did is for my husband;
After divorced, everything i did is just for my child. Now i just feel like doing something just for myself. At least buy something that i really wish to. I hope this weekend, i can spend my alone time to read my books, having good lunch and nice dinner by cooking by myself....

Before and after

I believe majority of the guys are the same! Before they get you, they will do whatever that you unexpected. Stick with you everyday. But once you become their gf or wife, everything will change. They started to be lazy to do anything or meet with you. That's why i prefer to be single, but i am not alone coz i still have my lovely daughter with me. I am very enjoy to be with her. Shopping together, high tea together, lunch and dinner together, even shower together. Haha....
My lovely baby, i am waiting for the long holiday on this coming month end. I have planning alot of things to share with you. We go to A ' Famosa, Malacca, Desaru sea side, shopping....Woo hoo...
Excited!

Stress~~~

My feeling is very stress....I am busy with my work, putting all the effort to perform, but at last my boss didnt appreciate and said i am not doing my job. I am busy thinking of my financial turnover, hope that i able to bring my child back to my side ASAP, but at last its hard for me to
do that. I am packed! I need a holiday to relax my mind! If all those pressure keep pushing me, i really going to be crazy soon. I thought i am having sleep walking last night, maybe i am too tired and too stress! I staying alone here. When i awake this morning, i found out that my back door is open! Every night before i sleep, i will close all the doors. But i really cant remember whether i got stay awake last night? Then i guess maybe i was sleep walking. I think i really need a holiday..... Go to sea side maybe...

Handmade soap

Dear all my friends, who got sell those handmade soap? I want to buy!

Future

This few days keep thinking about my future life. I am planning to bring child back to my side by next year, but unfortunately i am not afford to do so. I have a heavy burden, need to pay for my car loan, house rental, credit cards debts,.....etc. I was thinking of how to turnover and cut down my burden. Its really not easy for me as a single parent. But i know, since i have choosen this way, i need to stay firm and ve brave to walk through this way without looking back. Friends, please give me some idea.....

Good Luck, my friend

Dear friend, i really proud of you. I know you will hand your resign letter to boss today. I also thinking of the day which i am the one who handling resign letter. The enviroment, attitude and benefit become worse and worse. As we are still not at that level yet, but you assume that our level is more than that, this make us feel stressed! Everytime you asked us to share the idea, plan and explaination with you, but everytime you would not accept our idea, plan and feel that our explaination is EXCUSES! Yes! Whatever you think is correct, you are the one who thinking the best things, all of us are stupid! Just because of this, you have forced alot of them resigned!
My friend, i know you are the one who facing the same problem. So that, when i knew you are
going to resign, i feel happy to you. I wish you all the best and good luck!

Unfair!

Yes, i know recently i always late to the office, but i also work late. I can even work more than my work scope without claim, subsidiary, appreciated! I am not the only one who is always late to the offie, then why only I get scolded? It's really unfair! From now on, i will come to work punctually and sure i will go back sharp sharp. Since i joined this company, i never go back punctually, but what do i get? Get nothing! No one will appreciate you at all! Even though those things are out of my work scope, but i still try my best to handle it, settle it! I am bored of this job! i am fed up on YOU!

臭男人

贱男人！既然你已经有笨女人在你身边了，那你就好好的珍惜她。不要再来找我们麻烦了。什么叫

做你的财产？什么叫做破门行窃？我用钥匙开门回去自己家拿回自己的东西，不行吗？为什么必须

要你批准？那你带女人回家有没有得到我的同意？我把物资都免费让给你了，你还想怎样？你不要

以为你对我凶，恐吓我，我就会怕你！男人！

你能自我反省一下吗? 你有钱买名牌，贴女人，为什么就拿不出钱来买孩子的奶粉？你这一辈子都

不会有好日子过！贱男人！你不得好死！

自由了！我回来了！

各位姐妹朋友们，我回来了。好久没有更新我的部落格了！我已经和他分开了快要两年了，我带着孩子离开了那个所谓的家，过着新生活。我和他已经正式离婚了。这一年来，我学着自己一个人生活，学着独立靠自己，学会勇敢。虽然有时候很辛苦，但是苦日子也被我熬过去了。现在的我，不再害怕，不再需要靠人。日子过得比以前开心，活得更好。我希望未来的日子回过得更好。